What If?

Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na magtanong sa sarili ko kung paano kaya kung.. paano kaya kung at walang katapusang paano kaya. Paano kaya kung hindi natin nakilala 'yung mga taong nagustuhan natin at hindi tayo nagustuhan pabalik? Paano kaya kung hindi natin minahal yung mga taong hindi tayo minahal pabalik? Mas masaya kaya?

Siguro bilang isang tao, ang dami nating gustong burahin sa mga nangyari sa nakaraan natin. Na sana ginawa ko yun, na sana sinubukan ko, na sana hindi ko ginawa yun, nasaktan lang tuloy ako. Pero kung iisipin, kung hindi natin sila nakilala, nandito kaya tayo kung saan tayo naroon? Na baka nakilala natin sila kasi para maging isang leksyon.

Leksyon na kahit mahal na mahal natin ang isang tao, hindi nila tayo mamahalin ng dahil lang mahal natin sila. Na kahit nasasaktan sila dahil sa ibang tao at nagsisisigaw tayong "Nandito naman ako. Ako nalang." eh hindi magiging rason para makita nila tayo sa paraang gusto nating makita nila tayo.

Tanongin mo ang sarili mo. Paano kung habang baliw na baliw ka sa ibang tao, 'eh may taong nanghihinayang kasi hindi nila ang nakikita ang halaga mo? Paano kung may isang taong humihiling araw-araw na sana mahalin mo sila, pero hindi mo makita kasi nakatingin ka sa iba? Paano kung may nagmamahal sayo, sapat nabang rason yung para mahalin mo?

Can you take me home?

I think It's almost miracle when the person we like, likes us back. It's like one in a billion chance. That amazing moment when you discover that he's different from any other guy and you just want to stay with him, talk with him and laugh with him. Everything feels so right whenever you're with him. Hoping that time would stop so that you could spend a little more time with him because he's that amazing.

You just look at his lovely face. Looking at his thick eyelashes, his pointy nose, his kissable lips and you just realize that everything seems so perfect because It's him. And later that night, you're gonna realize that everytime you close your eyes, It's him that you see. You're gonna realize that you're starting to like him. You're gonna ask yourself "Why?" and your mind will spin around because there's so many things that you like about him. Hundreds of reason to like him.


Then one day, you're gonna wake up and realize that you like him so much that It hurts because It feels like one sided. Just thinking that what If he liked you back will actually give you some chills. You know, because It's almost miracle for us humans to like someone who would actually like us back. I think It's amazing and there's nothing we can do when two certain person likes each other so much. It's like a miracle that human makes.

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